My illness: Part 1

So i had been feeling bloated and had been experiencing stomach and groin issues the past few months, maybe past few years as i also used to have series of UTIs years back and now that i think about it, my symptoms may have been misdiagnosed and that i could have prevented everything had i demanded for transvaginal ultrasound early. I was too scared not only of the tests but of the result more than anything. 

I knew there was something not right inside my body but still i wasn't prepared to know a thing. Instead, i planned vacation with husband and my son. I knew if i will get sick we will no longer go places we want. We went to Baguio and we were about to go to Laguna just in time for summer when something came up. I felt a lump on the lower left of my belly button. I was so scared. First thing i thought about was cancer. Anxiety got the better of me that i thought i needed to see a doc asap. Though i knew if i go to the doc, they will put me on a series of unnecessary tests like bloodwork, papsmear, urinalysis and shit...I knew i only needed one test to confirm a lump. The transvaginal ultrasound no more. 

So i went to the hospital alone and requested for an ultrasound before any other tests even without doctor's referral. The sonologist got me started with her lecture saying i should have met with a doctor first before any ultrasound. She was mad but i just let her be. I didn't really care about anything and anyone else except the lump. But from being mad, suddenly she shifted to being calm and i knew it why. She lowered her temper because she saw something wrong but i dared not to ask. Few minutes later, the results was in my hands which i opened immediately. God knows i could understand few. I saw the word cyst and some figures which must have been the size. 

The right ovary had a cyst measured 4cm. The left ovary had no measurement of the cyst but it reads as "cystically enlarged left ovary suggestive of an endometrial cyst" My understanding then was that i got enlarged left ovary and a right ovary with just a small cyst. I thought it could be treated with meds and that i got nothing serious to worry about so i calmed myself down. But not after i gave my obgyn a visit a day after.